regret..
Friday, September 26, 2008, 11:26:00 PM
why do i feel so sad now?
upon receiving that sms, i felt like a great failure..
why do i have so little self-confidence to tell u how i feel?
and this is my greatest mistake..
why do i always regret after it has happen..
is hard to lose u..
everytime i think about u,
it felt so far yet so near..
even buying u food,
makes me feel very satisfied..
every moment im with u, be it having our meals, is makes me feel very happy and comfortable.
but i cant be selfish as this is still a one way love..
i cant force in watever u wanna do..
these 9 months..
after a few days we met..
i began to have a tingle of feelings for u..
i just do not dare to say the 3 words..
im afraid that history will happen again..
im afraid that it will affect u..
and worse, im afraid of losing u..
but now, everything changes..
i felt so lost..
images of u kept flashing in my mind wherever i go..
felt so moody..
alone..
regretful..
afraid..
whenever i think of u,
tears just rolled down my cheeks..
but.. wat can i do now?
why does this always happen to me?
there is nothing much that i can do now..
even now,
i still do not have the courage to say..
i love u..
why does it got to be so hard to say out..
why am i so useless?
there is nothing more that i can do..
the only thing that i can do now is to wish that u will be happy in the future,
from the bottom of the heart..
and also,
if there is anything that u nid help in,
be it a shoulder to cry on,
a back to lean on,
remember that i will be there for u..
and..
i love you..
